Things are feeling different health wise. My leg feels weaker, my head constantly hurts, ataxia is a normal occurance - even in my tongue. I am so afraid yet I can't let Lyle know I am not strong. If he thinks for one minute I am going to fall, he may leave.
This has not been proved. he just says things such as, " I can't even take care of me", and, " I can't promise I could be a good caretaker."
Then things get tumultuous and we fight. I decide to move out this weekend and he chases me. I stopped calling. I disconnect the phone for peace and quiet and he calls. He calls my cell which is off. Seems i found the key to our relationship - the more non-chalant I am and disassociated with his behavior and what he says, the more he chases me.
I hate to play that game but now I know he loves me and will do anything to keep me.
Back to the tingle. Geez, I really get scared when the numbness and tingling become present in my limbs. I take neurotin, Xanax, Copaxone and sumatiptan, yet they all seem not to work. I have a month on the Celexa. I hope I can cut the Neurotin to a very small dose. In my next post I will talk about drugs used to treat symptoms.
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